5 Days Until Christmas @ HOME!!!! wahoo!!!

Brad finished his finals... thank goodness I feel like I haven't spent time with him in ages! My christmas shopping is complete and I am so ready to go to boise and home! I want to put a preview of my plans for nessa's baby shower! I'm SUPER SUPER SUPER excited...

The theme is "WILD about Chance"...

Colors: Yellow, Green, and Blue

Picture the pretzel chocolate dessert with hugs insted of regular kisses.... wild=zebra stripes! Just a preview... I've been planning for months... It better be the place you are on Dec. 29! I found my dream home... or what I want to do to be able to have my dream home... I wish that we could bring row houses found in boston, philidelphia and other old towns to utah and arizona... I want the three story walk up with a full wall of exposed brick on each floor. I want to renovate the kitchen and put in brazilian teak floors and take advantage of the architectural details that the early 1900's homes have. The really don't make homes like they used to. ah... to own a home... what a dream of mine. i watch house hunters like everyday and wonder what our first home will be like and where it will be! i wonder how i will decorate it and make it a home. i want it to feel elegant and homey at the same time. i want it to be eclectic and fun and have furniture that i have refurbished, curtains and decor that i have made. i want to gut the old thing and make it my own. we'll see what happens. but i seriously can't wait. and the sad thing is that i have to wait... for like AT LEAST 5 years. bleh... why can't we just instantly have like 20 grand for a down payment.. it would be much easier to buy a home! check out this blog... http://www.thestoriesofa2z.com/ and her home... she has a link on the right side all the way down: Tour my home and renovating my twin. AMAZING!!! THIS IS WHAT I WANT.... arizona doesn't have this to offer... its too new here. :( so either a 3 story walk up like hers or...

a craftsman style bungalow... with built-ins galore!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE built-ins... I may have to move to California... hmmm.. is it worth it???

maybe... just maybe... well thats all i have folks... Merry Christmas!!!

So sometimes I randomly pull out this old tweety bird box from my closet. It is my most prized possesion. Why you may ask.... because it's where i keep my journals from my entire life.. I wish that I could put all of what i am feeling right now into this blog post, but it would probably take the ENTIRE night to do so. So i will do what i can beware my mind is going to wander and reminisce... AND GO!

I had the best high school experiences ever. PERIOD. i was involved in school had the BEST friends and liked the MOST boys i think anyone has ever liked... i crushed on guys like crazy... and i DO NOT REGRET IT!!! moving has made me realize just how much i love my home, my family and my friends. tonight this is focusing on my friends. i really have the funniest friends. Trista-hilarious because she's Miss America and proper-she keeps me in line

Vannessa- i have to admit i just like making her laugh cause it makes me laugh. but seriously she is hilarious too in her own special way-especially the way she says things and yeah you just have to know her....

Jessica-i wrote in my journal that she does a crazy spanking dance... ask her to do it for you... you might die.

Ashlee- even though i rarely talk to her she makes a lot of silly noises and faces and is very blonde....

anyways.... my junior year was the best ever. well maybe senior year its hard to tell. either way

I MISS HIGH SCHOOL!!!!

in my box of reminiscing is a song i started writing.. oh boy.. before graduating... here we go

i wanted to write about friendship, but nothing comes to mind

except memories and laughter that are too great to fill these lines.

They're better left as thoughts than in a letter to say

how much i'll miss good times and crazy nights

even bad things too cause all of them brought us together

pink pythongs livin true!

of course recently there was spring break in st george

and further back our unforgettable summer with boys we now hate

we danced so many nights away

whether at homecoming, out on the streets

or del taco parking lots....

and thats all i have.... cause i quit hahha...

I don't even know where to begin. i'm stuck so i'm going to do this writing thing i used to do in english class. you pick a word and then let your mind do the rest... and go...

the word is...ok i've sat here for like 5 minutes and can't think of a word haha i'm so lame.

but it used to be my favorite thing to do.

moving on.

in high school i had a best friend named pasha.

she came to life and made my life complete.

she made vannessa pee her pants.

she basically was the life of the party.

the end.

some of the things i remember loving about being in high school. i could be the most random person and no one cared. it was the best thing ever. i got to know so many people

my friends were probably pretty embarassed of me. here are the reasons why...

i loved to pay in change haha

i was completely boy crazy and would point out cute ones wherever we went.

i always wanted to go and talk to the cute ones.

i had a new crush like every week/day.. maybe a few in the same day...

i would turn into pasha quite often

i didn't care what people thought about me

i did what i wanted i'm serious

i dance pretty crazy(imagine pasha saying that)

I LOVED STUDIO 600 WAY BEFORE IT BECAME POPULAR

AND WANTED TO GO ALLLLL THE TIME!!!!

well i really need to go to bed... more reminiscing to come tomorrow. maybe...

ON MY MIND

HOME and FAMILY..So lately I've been a little down.. I'm finally admitting it. After our last visit specifically, I realized that I am missing out on all the things back home. Specifically.... Nessa's Prego Belly Growing and not being able to be there for her. Sean being a senior and not being able to go to all of his games and support him before he leaves on his mission in less than a year, and Jenna just growing up and being a good big sister. And finally my parents... just being around them makes me feel better. It always has. You were right... I shouldve taken advantage of sunday visits more often. I am who I am because of my family and I do miss them terribly. I need a visit! So come visit Brad and I ok! It's funny cause growing up I wanted nothing to do with my family. I think this really hurt Nessa and I feel horrible about not being a better sister! I always wanted to be going somewhere and doing something with my friends. Now it seems like the older I get the more I realize just how much I missed out on and how much my family really means to me. Now all I want to do is spend time with them! I love you family!!! CHRISTMAS...I'm so excited for it because.... we are flying to Boise on christmas day to visit Brad's family there and spend time with his parents. I love Boise... I don't know what it is about that place but it is so nice. I really wouldn't mind living there. I'm also excited because I love everything about christmas.... the music (NSYNC christmas cd all the time!!!), the decorations, the traditions, family and friends, and most importantly the focus on our savior Jesus Christ and his great example to us. This will be the first christmas eve that bradley and I have spent alone, but we can't wait to be with family on christmas day! My HUBBY...A couple of days ago I asked Bradley what he wanted for christmas and he said that he didn't really need anything and that we should just use all of the christmas money for me. I quote him... "because I've learned that I like to spend money on YOU rather than on MYSELF." How sweet is that??? I'm not really going to let him, but it just reminded me that he is the most unselfish, giving person I know. Because I am the most selfish person I know, we make a great team. He always goes above and beyond what I think would be enough "giving" as in tips and service and volunteering. I'm so grateful for his example! THE NUTCRACKER... I'm going for the first time this Saturday and I am sooooo excited! There is a really neat family in our ward here from wellsville (logan area) that has moved here for a year. I serve with Natalie(the mom/wife) in cubscouts.. when i can go.. and I would say we are getting to be good friends with both her and her husband Jed. Brad goes and eats senoran dogs with him every wednesday. But I am joining her and her 2 girls for the show and I can't wait!!!